Today my skin got chapped. It got so chapped that when I put lotion on my hands and arms it burned so badly. I was reading other people's blogs just now, and some of them made me laugh so hard. They weren't funny in a "ha-ha" sense, they were just melodranatic and stupid. I feel bad critiquing other's writing, but I consider it to be a sort of benefit to being a writer in progress. And I suppose there is no one to stop me from thinking what I want anyway, so......

I think that I will go home and take a shower. Then, after I am clean, I will fill up the tub and take a bath. I just think that baths when you are dirty are gross. It's like bathing in a tub of your own filth water. And ew. That's what I say. I have a runny nose. Nasal sex.... Oh, and ew again. That's what I think now, thanks Josh. So, I give up on food. Screw it. It never did anything good for me. Stupid life-giving food. I'll show it. You bet I will. But first I need sleep. No, wait, actually, first I need to go home because it is 10:30 and I am still at my wretched place of employment. Death shall come to you all. I don't know why I wrote that last thing...must be the tired. And I'm off.

success.

In about 15 minutes I have to leave work to go to my church. Seemingly innocent...or is it? I was sucked in. I was sucked in by the promise of pizza. Now...now, I have to watch a video about abstinance. How do things like this happen!!! Is life just one big scam? Or is that just religion? I don't know. I think that the majority of religion is a scam, but not all of it. I have seen the good side of religion. I think that's why I can't let it go. No matter how hard I try something keeps pulling at the strings of my heart. I can't entirely release religion. Oh, the weather is really bad out right now. I hope that I don't crash into some pole, and knock it over and then cause a chain reaction of polls falling- espaecially on people. But only the stupid people, not the good people. That sounds funny. I was just kidding. There is no excuse to tak ea human life- none at all. That is what makes me a level five in moral maturity. I don't approve of the death penalty, and yet, I think to myself, "what am I supposed to do about that? Nothing. So that's how it will stay." I don't follow through with my philosophies. Everytime I stop touching the computer for a number of seconds a bunch of pictures of horses pop up on the screen. It's like some odd screen saver, but the pictures go by really fast. I don't understand. Maybe the person who uses this computer thinks that the horses are erotic, and it's some sort of horse porn. horn. Ha ha... Whew, I am a funny kid. And so is Scout, that whole thing about the being funny and saying she will change made me laugh so hard. Anyhow, must go to horrible movie. Maybe I will be able to escape somehow, maybe I will crash into that poll and it will be God's blessing. {Of course, I won't be dead or anything...} Or maybe I will just go pick up Josh and tell him that it's a movie about the life and times of Art Garfunkle, and then he'll come. That way I won't have to suffer alone. And that way I will share my pain with someone else...


Thanks Josh...